One lifetime is quite insignificant in the existence of our species. If you want to really reflect on the hurried nature we have all been born into, think about the hundreds of thousands of years that have brought us to today – the very instant that you are reading through this sentence. There have been hundreds of thousands of lifetimes we had nothing to do with and an innumerable amount of lifetimes we may (or may not) affect in the future but will never know. Without digging too deeply into my interest of spirituality, physics and philosophy, I want to bring up the importance of appreciating the unknown essence of the future.
Imagine yourself on a timeline flowing through a million possibilities at any given moment but only ever experiencing one. When faced with ‘choices’ in our lives we often think of limited amounts of options– life is not simplistic enough to offer limited options. How do we explain what happens to us? Here in Abu Dhabi many of us are unsure how we made it here; I have been asking myself this question my whole life. Everywhere I find myself, in every aspect of my life, I question my role in making it happen.
Perhaps predestination has played out in my journey through my conscious reality, perhaps when I thought I was choosing a certain path it turns out I was just born at the right time. I feel like I am the ball dropped into a ball drop game where a series of unavoidable pins deflect me right and left out of my control until I make my way down to the winning position. The unpredictable last minute risk I took in the fourth grade has thrown me into a series of successful accomplishments where I now find myself at the best school, with a supportive family back home, the best friend I could ask for, being with the love of my life, and being able to maintain a decent mindset. Everything has been set up for me too perfectly and only now is it making me nervous. When is everything going to stop working out for me? I am beginning to anticipate the storm...the skies have been clear for far too long and I am too blessed to not be thinking about a threatening future.
What was your fourth grade risk?
ReplyDeleteFear not little dove you have sufferd and your spirit has deflected the attempt at the "hard lesson" the loss, the failure and made with it a positive step towards your present perceived state of unwarrented? euphoria......... I have never been so scared watching you struggle to breath in an oxygen tent at Sick Kids. I observed you not "fitting in" at school, as you were bored of the usual and frustrated more often than not with the tedium of class room assignments day after day after day. ESA did not want you. (They may have been scared )none the less you were hurt. Our walk back with Zorro late one night was a long walk with much learned. Suffering the death of a young friend with whom you shared a light and spiritual bond that you may have shared for a lifetime was a crushing blow. Frequent visits to the Chemo floor where we waited with many terminally ill children for your turn to see the doctor and have your tests done.
ReplyDeleteNo Chani, you have felt the tip of many arrows it is what you have done with these experiences that has taken you to where you are. You work hard to do the right thing ..always.. and you are true to your self and your principles. You have great friends because you are one. You have a wonderful man in your life because you are worthy of such a man. Your family will support you unconditionally no matter what you do, what school you attend, or if your mindset is where you want it to be! Predestination...Predetermination... HUMBUG!!!!!
Karma!and a Positive attitude how can you go wrong?
Lastly, although I gave you the introductory books in Quantum physics I am sure you understand that with a bit of help from some of those gifted science students in Abu Dhabi you will soon figure out a way to be in atleast two different realities at the same time soon.
Smile Child you deserve it!! ALL
Love ,your Dad
hey have you ever watched degrassi before?
ReplyDeleteRAYS SO COOL